heroes and humans

Tonight I went to dinner and a movie with my johnguy. It was so good to see him and talk to him and be silly.

It was good to connect and talk about our similar goals of trying to live a more integrated, balanced, authentic life. To live a life in which we can share all of ourselves, to not hold back, to really connect. This is my struggle lately.

Does it take a hero to live that kind of life? Does it just take being human? Even heroes are humans and make mistakes, hurt others in their attempt to do good, get tempted by their shaddow sides, get self aggressive, and create suffering for themselves and others. But heroes are humans and love and laugh and forgive and and bring happiness and joy to themselves and others. Heroes are vulnerable and strong and fearful and courageous. We are drawn to heroes because of their superhuman ability to really be human, to live in the human realm, to feel even when it hurts.

I went to see Spiderman III tonight. I was looking for a good hero movie and had hoped to get caught up in an uplifted "hero saves the day" and "happily ever after" movie. The movie was not that, and I think it gave me a lesson I've been needing to remember...that each of us has the potential to be a hero and each of us has the potential to be human.